Smudge Revisited

I post often about Smudge and the little book
that I created to honour her life and legacy.
It came to me in unexpected ways
and I am more than a little grateful for
this journey with Smudge that
added a richness to my world
I could not have expected.

Each time I pick it up I am in awe of what I hold in my hands. It truly seems like I had nothing to do with it. Ridiculous of course but I remember being so ‘out of it’ after her passing, I honestly don’t know where it came from. Ot rate I do now but didn’t at the time.   There is so much more to this reality than we know and I am so often gobsmacked by  the process of life, of creation, of how trusting, living in kindness and grace and above all gratitude for the little things can propel us into experiences that we could not have ‘made happen’.

So Smudge and her book were exactly this for me. collection of my own experiences of listening and feeling into Smudges experience of the world – or simply her world through my awareness.

The paintings flowed with ease which is not the norm for me. I have learned to get out of my own way often though after a metaphorical kick in the butt!!!

In hindsight I was so raw in my grief  after Smudge passed dissolving into drawing and writing  was not a thought process rather an energy charge beyond me a contagious pull consumed me. , Smudge, my art often feels like my reason for living.I felt ‘caught’ by the work.

There was no plan, it simply took over, holding my attention from one step to another and before long it was done; a work pulled through my deep sadness into life – a project to honour our time together and bring attention to other beautiful wild endangered cats.

This human experience we all share in some way. This book continues my own journey towards inner growth and expanded awareness. A way of releasing the aches , my story, and embracing a world of magical endless possibility.

Publishing the book was the challenge.
Out of this, my greatest joy is that now Smudge sits with others who take the time to slowly immerse themselves in the healing energy of her pages, as she healed me.

All things are interwoven including artworks and words.
They can  touch something inside each of us, differently.

If Smudge- personally speaking tweaks your interest check her out and the beautiful prints of all the paintings in the book -here on my website –  blazewarrender.com   – the book and prints for you to browse are in ‘SHOP’ – https://blazewarrender.com/product/smudge/

My life lesson from this project – mutual dependency – Smudge reliant on me to evolve and me on her to grow my awareness. This work touched me with inspiration, planted a seed, which got my attention. This is what is need for something to ‘grow’ in us—

Always thank you so much for reading my musings.Wishing you all things creative in your life……blaze